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The Soil, The Sun

from Grand Rapids (demos) by Jessica in The Rainbow

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I remember when you said you're not afraid to die
And all the people that you would be sad to leave behind
Well you've considered moving almost ten or twenty times
Are you sad at all to leave them
Do you realize the lies that you're telling
Because of all your trauma
Here

Are you sad to be rooted in a state of being that was chosen for you
Not the other way around

Well I know that it's scary but that's how ground is.

That's how things get grounded
Like seeds falling from the sky
Like points of light
They choose to fall
But really do they choose the ways they'll land
Or, well, minimally
I guess they let the wind blow them
Aimlessly
Away from all those rocks and trees
Into that fertile soil
Can you feel it?
The soil and the sun dear

I know you're scared to have only just begun here
To have only just begun dear
You've only just begun here
Can you put things on a map and leave them
Or does the fear win again
Does the fear win again
Can you feel it here?
Can you feel it in the air?
The saddest of hearts get broken before they've even started to make their peace
The saddest of lies get told before they've been breathed in
And how
How I breathe you now
How I've held this truth in my bones for years
And let it out here
I wanna flow dear
Transitioning into a world I never knew
I'm so afraid of you all letting me down
The way I've always let myself down too

I didn't mean to choose
Like seeds from the sky
Like stars in your eyes
I fell in a general direction
Oh Midwest
I thought you were the best
For a kind heart
Needing direction

Of love for a planet
For a lake you took for granted
Most your life
Oh Lake Michigan
You'll do
How I love you
But how I love the ocean blue too

Sorry for the times I spent
Bein scared
Sorry for the breath I spent
Complaining
Instead of preparing
Cause being prepared
Sounded so much scarier than just complaining
(About bein scared)

(I like complaining about being too scared to move)
(Deer frozen)
(Oh dear, you've been frozen)

I know that they might hate you
I know that some will hate you
But someday they might love you
And some already love you

They do.

<3

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from Grand Rapids (demos), released December 30, 2023

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~existential dream folk~
~neoclassical lullaby pop~
~care bear stare~

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