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1. |
Ghost Story
05:31
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Ghost Story
Do you want to understand
the way I held your hand
through all this pain here
in your brain dear?
Do you want to huddle close
for the end of this
ghost story
in your skin
like a code written for you
to begin to shed
like lies
like lions in the night
hunting you
Do you want to know
the ways I didnât let you
come true?
Didnât let you be what you
wanted to be
all along
cause you were wrong
and that wasnât your destiny
at all
You were made to be
so small and
behind the scenes
behind the wheel
behind the scenes
I know you feel youâve
been so slighted and ignited
like a little girl awake at night
whoâs seen the light
and huddling close
it wonât change the story you get to write
I know youâre tuning in again and again and again
and I know you wanted to win something
at this
tiny arcade in the sky
with all these cheap and fragile prizes
and you donât know that those will turn to dust in your hand
(how I wanted you to understand)
but you just wouldnât let this go
you just wouldnât let this go
no you just wouldnât let this go
you just wouldnât let this go
and I want you to let this go
I know you want to hold this rope
But I need you to let this goâŠ
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2. |
Small Things
04:28
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Small Things
Small things are hard to break
really, unless you try really hard
to make them feel even smaller
than they already do right now
tiny things are really hard to know
cause they grow like anyone else does
but they grow so little
that you hardly see them grow at all
and I want to be small
my whole life through
I want to teach you
that there's beauty in
being you
so simply you
so simply you
(and I fear you won't believe me
unless I prove it with my time)
(unless I show you I'm so much happier here
and now
than I was before
all these little life lessons
came knocking at my door
and I'm here right now
making tiny changes
and I'm here right now
moving tiny places
in my mind
in the dark
and I'm ready for a
brand new start)
(now)
(here)
(cause it will
maybe never be
as clear as it
has been
here)
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3. |
Lies, Take My Time
03:59
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Lies (Take My Time)
You didn't let me win anything
You didn't let me have anything
I didn't need
didn't need to grow here
You didn't let me be
the thing I most wanted to be
but why did I believe that
being anything would
make me happy here?
Cause I am small as I have always been
and all I have is you
my long lost friend
in all my dreams coming true
and I'm only wanting this
from now on here
Please don't let them sell me more lies here
Please don't let me waste my time here
Don't let me believe the lies here
All of these lies that take my time here
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4. |
Dogooder
06:36
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Dogooder ("do good er")
Taking care of the world
in my mind
for God and time
and you can't see
what I see
and that's alright with me
I guess
Taking care of these hearts
I see need help
and who am I to
give you anything
but time's like a wheel
and I feel things a
different way now
Cause you're on my back
huddling close
and you're taking up space
like a Holy Ghost
and I'm not ready to leave
though I told you I would
I'm not ready to stop doing
all this good
for invisible lights
that I see in my mind
and I'm trying to find
why I even see them at all
cause I'm so dang small
I'm so incredibly small
So how could you use me at all
I don't have much to even use here
Can I say the right things?
Can I do the right things?
All I know is I'm not even
close to the answers
and you are using everyone and I'm okay with this
place in your heart
And all the ways you taught me to be what I am
and all the ways I can't help but be what I am
and all the ways I am not getting any clearer
and all the ways I'm not getting any younger or smarter or wiser or better at doing your will
or younger or smarter or wiser or
better at doing the things you need
in all your seeds
to help this need
to soothe these hearts
and I'm just a little molecule
sitting outside by a tree
going deep in my mind
trying to find all these words
that could make you feel better
that could make you feel different
than what you feel right now.
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5. |
Youth
07:07
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Youth
When I look at the sky
I see the light in your eyes
and it makes me sad for you
Not sad in a way that's relateable I guess
I'm just sad at all the ways most things
won't come true for you
most likely
here
I don't mean to be discouraging dear
But it's like the sky
and I am going to
rain down
the truth
as I see the truth
really
when I look around
at all the things that
haven't been true
we've been sold all these lies
we've been told since our youth
all the things we wanted to be true
I believed them
did you?
When I look at the sky
all I see now is
all this bright white light
It makes me sad and happy
at the same time
and I know that doesn't
rhyme with anything we were
told we should feel about life
it feels real and alive
and I'm only trying to understand
and I know that I may never understand
the things I planned to do
Especially all the things that
never came true
Especially all the things
I tried way too hard to make true
against their will
against the truth
of what I've seen
here
it's a kind of sad and happy truth
It lets you off the hook
from your dreams of youth
You can be anything here
and you can change your dreams
every year
It's kind of sad and then it's happy
It's kind of happy til it's sad
when you think of all the ways
that every little thing is
filled with all these lies
that we're spreading
all the time
and I'm wanting to remain
and I'm wanting to remain okay
I'm wanting not to throw away
the whole dang game
I'm wanting to
remain okay.
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6. |
The Sound of Trying
07:44
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The Sound of Trying
Why don't you take your cue
from your actual heroes here?
Why don't you wish for things I can do
with your time?
Why are you trying to be
something you clearly are not right now
it's kind of hard to
watch you dream about
You were once the thing you are
so dang obsessed with
It's like the rarest form of
arrested development
when a person keeps putting things
into pools in their mind
like a strange wish fulfillment
like a strange kind of game in time
How you try and try so hard
to be the thing you
missed your chance to be
cause you're not that same
seed of a thing anymore
you think you are
but you're just
tied to time
in your mind
where you left off
keeping score
cause you were so busy
keeping score
you were lost in worlds that
made you get lost in
cause you couldn't
find the road
and you couldn't find a clue
for how to get
from A to B to c to d to
e to f to y to x
and other letters you couldn't even understand
it was not the plan
so stop resisting who you are
and let yourself be
a walking talking failure
that succeeded in moving forward
like a seed that keeps being
planted in new things
you don't need those wings
you borrowed from
those angry girls
you're not an angry girl
you've got a lot of hope
and
you can hold this rope
but not the
rope you wanted
to be true
you're not cool anymore
cause you're not angry
and
you're done keeping score.
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Flight Path (or, Imaginary Things)
Shoot me out of space like a light
Shoot me into the sky
where it's bright
where it's bright
and I am flying here
Shoot me out of my head
out of the top of my head
til I can fly in my mind
and you say it's where I belong
instead of in real time
and I am not afraid to be
something different than I was
than you
than you
than I was
it's
true...
Let me fly like a light in the sky
Let me fly like a light
shooting out of my head
Let me fly here the way I
always wanted to fly
in real time
Let me out of your heart
and into the sky
Let me fly let me fly let me fly let me fly
Let me fly
Cause you think flying is a thing
you do with money
but you're wrong
Cause you think flying
is a thing you do with wings
but you are wrong
Cause I can fly inside
I can fly inside
this song
And you can watch me from the ground
and wish you were up here
Yea you can watch me from the ground
and learn to be up here
and year after year after year
I will make you a map of
my flight path
Year after year
Year after year
I'll make you a map
I will make you a map
I will make you a map
I will make you a map
I will make you a map
I'll make you a map
I'l make me a map
I'll make myself into a map
I will make my time into
a course for you
I will make my time
I'll make my time
I will make my life
I will make my life
into something you can use
to understand the ways you've
been sold things that
aren't true at all
aren't true at all
the things that are not true
they're not true for me
not true for you
they're lies they're spinning
lies they're selling you
they're not true for me
not true for you
cause you can
drop it all
right now
and
FLY
(if
you
want
to)
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8. |
Hold On
05:58
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Hold On
You helped me when I needed to
break free
You stole my heart and my
sanity
I want you to know
that you lost your hold
on me
You were hungry for a winning
team
or ticket to some
great lottery in the
sky
and I am finally wanting
to see the truth
like light it's heavy
with a permanence
like light it's heavy
and I want you to know
that you're writing rules
that anyone can easily
see through
cause your rules aren't made up
with truth
How can it be?
How can it be that playing
this life like a lottery
could be wise
How can it be?
How can it be that this life
could make anyone really
truly happy if you are
winning all the toys
think of all those girls and boys
that were playing alone
on the playground in school
How could it be wise
to devote all your time
to rising above them
(or rising above anyone)
and I want to heal the world
I don't even know the world
is this just some lie I've been sold
How could I heal things
that I can't hold
There's too many lives
to hold
How could I heal what
I can't know?
I can't even heal myself
and like 3 people around me
or two people around me
or one person
I can't even help one person
around me
or two people around me
I can try
I can try
but it feels like
flying in the dark
and that's the lie they sold
since the day that I was born
is that if you feel things
inside you
you should bring them
to the light
cause my light is not your light
and your light is not my light
and I am wanting to just see the light for me now.
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9. |
Grow
07:05
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Grow
Trusting you is so hard for me
to do from down here
Wishing
Wanting some things to change
and forgetting how many things
I want to stay
the same.
Going underground
for comfort or nourishment
I've found it's hard
to know what's good here
in the dark
where things are scary
but in the dark
is where all things
root
where all things
root and...
find the ground
beneath their toes
like fingertips made out of
...no one knows
it's not the thing
the thing you thought
you'd want for life
you'd want your time
to look like
it's not the thing you thought
you'd need
it's heavy and like the dark around
a seed
so grow
just grow here
you don't have to know, dear
just grow
just grow
here
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