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Friend Ship (​.​.​.​to the sky, in your mind​!​)​(​(​ruff sketch​)​)

by Jessica in The Rainbow

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Goin down somewhere we didn't mean to go I know you want to I know you want to know Where we're going to be or where we're coming from but hey maybe these things aren't ours to know. I'm going to take your hand and say Maybe you and me should go and play with something we used to know Cause maybe life is just a game and maybe we are all the same deep down deep down in something something in our skin or bones.
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I want to go somewhere with you I don't know where we're goin to I want to go somewhere I've never been Do you want to be my friend? / Yes I'll be your friend (be my friend) There's hot tea for...?? Buzzin round the door She's been there before Cat Stevens, my favorite record for sure Tea for the ?? I'll be your friend (you'll be my friend) ?? (knocks) Come in Friend (Friend) Friends (Friends) Keep it keep it keep it keep it low like that Oooh Wah wah wah wah wah Oh oh oh (knocks) I'm lettin em in. (+outro monologue and byes...)
4.
If I had to choose I'd choose you every time There's no reason or rhyme But you make time feel like flying And people can say what they want of the same things And people can make all the same changes They call them choices Where you change your mind a thousand times But I can't understand this anymore.
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In the place where things come true I can see you like a rainbow meets the sky I am holding you like a butterfly / lullaby And all I wanted to be true when I was small And all the light in your hair is sparkling for all the world (to me) And I know I'm getting things wrong somehow like signing off and on And still you hold me like a song that I'm always getting wrong And we're all flying down from the sky And you see with eyes that you've been given Not the ones you wanted to light by writing a thousand songs and singing them all this time still I don't feel the kind of thing that I am seeking so I've learned learned to fly like a pegasus or pony do unicorns have wings? well I guess they don't and all the things I've gotten wrong like this song I'm trying for you Do you know that it's all always coming true? Growing over and under at the same time Floating over and under at the same time And I'm like a bird that wants to fly away with you But away from you and to you I don't know which way to choose... *FYI this song was written from a crowdsourced collection of lyric/topic suggestions*
6.
where are you going when you're alone when you're at home in your skin and people around you make you feel different than when you're alone all of the color all of the light it ripples around you night after night it's bright like an ocean and soft like a song you wanted around you and i'm not going to be around much longer will you find another way to stay calm another way to smile when i'm gone? will you find all this light in your own ways will you try try to find it all? ooh you are made of color and light you are made to be a light to anyone but you
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I like to be with you in the car I like to be with you wherever you are We like to go to places that aren't far Where we go, you know I love it where you are Da da da da Da da di da Why do you want to go anywhere but where we're going? Why would you want to go anywhere but where we're going? Cause I'll go anywhere with you Anywhere with you Anywhere with you Anywhere with you
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Hold onto the little things that you might lose And take care of the quiet words that you don't use And hold back the tears or use them to make you stronger Just hold back the tears cause nothing is all that wrong now If you just hold back the fears and fill up your mind with words that make you feel strong. (accidental interlude) Just hold back the tears or let them just move right through you Just hold back the fears and let yourself learn something new If you just hold back the fears or give them away to something that makes you feel small.
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When you want to see the world through new eyes When you want to grow in ways that are not a surprise And you can see all the colors you were made to be When you wake up from this dream we are living in When you see all the pain that surrounds us and you want to go back into your room / womb And all this color is too bright And maybe you're just trying things on for size And maybe you should should do somethin new should should do somethin new something different than you've been doing something different than you've done
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You and I have been together for so long now It is time to remember all the ways you can grow now I want you to fly like a bird In the sky In your mind Where you know you'll be heard Cause you and I have been friends since the dawn of time And it's time to fly It's time to fly da da da da ooh ooh da da da da
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Something in my skin is waking up To the place where we begin making up All the beauty in the world breaking up like a bad connection Something on your face lets me know I don't need to change the world just to grow I'm a tiny little seed, don't you know? That won't change in bloom And you take me in your vision And I'll take what I am given And I'll write it down for you Something in the world speaks your name Like a tiny little moth to a flame I am brighter than I will be again That's because of you And you take me in your vision And I'll take what I am given And I'll write it down for you
13.
Wonder in this world I know there is I know there is Wonder in this world I know there is I know there is Beauty in your face and in your skin and in your hair and in your eyes and in your voice and in the way you do not care about anything I thought I needed and all the ways I thought I'd be afraid I am now just learning to be stronger than I've ever been before.
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People everywhere in my mind in my skin in my energy they're living inside me like birds or butterflies they're made of light And I can see these colors in my mind in my eyes in my time like a fiction I didn't write and didn't want at all And taking a cue from you is all I can do Time makes you blind to all the things you knew as a child when you were born before you were born before you were made to fit the mold made from other molds what's the first mold? well I don't know. And all this light like fiction makes me blind And all this time like wisdom leaves you unkind (I don't want to be unkind) (cause I believe that's the whole point... and they're waiting for us to decide to stop missing the point)
15.
Where you goin? I don't know that I want to find out the way Where you goin? I don't know if your way is a way I can understand cause it feels like the answers just fall into your hands. And it's okay I'm not trying to complain I'm just stating the name for all the ways I've been winding around like a ... ay ay ah ah da da da
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There is only this moment here right now There is only this time and this place And I've found out I'm not in a race at all are you? There is only one time one space You gotta figure out where you belong and everything is a song and I am not scared like before Cause all the ways I've felt outside are like lies that rooted in my mind and you never kept me out at all at all There is only one light and it's burning brightly like a flame or a planet we want to know And all the ways I'm not what I wanted to be are lies I keep telling myself and I'm perfectly fine where I am and I'm going to sit still until all this light in my veins fills up the whole world And know that that includes you Just know that includes you <3
17.
In your mind You will find Something you need to know Way in there Like a bear It's waiting for you to grow
18.
Picture a place in your mind where everything you've ever wanted to find is in there it's always been in there It may seem like like a lie like a fantasy but I can swear on my life everything is going to be alright if you can find a way inside a way inside this place a way into a way to get in the mood cause it can take you in and it won't let you go and it won't let you go you'll be so glad you found it and i know you are scared to be inside this hole in your mind but i know you will find what you're looking for and maybe we'll be saved or maybe we'll be bored or maybe we'll be late and almost getting too old and maybe we'll be scared until the day we go and i may let you go but i know that you can find your way in this hole
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if you wanna be if you wanna be my savior my savior if you wanna be my friend be my savior from saviors cause time is moving and life is ticking onward like little puddles collecting in a jar and i can't hold this in me i can't hold on much longer and where you are and where you are is far enough away to seem like mountains cannot be climbed cannot be scaled but if i hold you in my mind i hold you like a puzzle that i couldn't put together and you are with me even when you're going somewhere new and you are with me and i know i'm with you too and everything works out the way you wanted it to Do you want to be my friend if all that means is friendship not some great spaceship to the sky in your mind.

about

This album is a collection of songs written (mostly) during the 365 Day Songwriting Challenge last year...during a specific time when I was willing to take risks of rejection and learn to have friends again. I think I've been scarred since middle school drama, and somehow confused boundaries with walling myself off from the spontaneous potential for free-spirited joy that only comes from connecting deeply and/or consistently with others. Especially those you adore, or those who adore you. This album contains collaborations with people who reached out to me, people who I reached out to, some haven't even been finished yet (the Earthwork collab is a convo in the works between me and Seth Bernard...but the song is a placeholder as I wrote it on the Earthwork Farm while feeling all the Harvest Gathering love).

There's so much I could say about this month, and what this album was supposed to be. It was NOT supposed to be this 'ruff.' This is album 2 of 12 albums I'll be releasing between April 2018 and March 2019 (one a month, my newest challenge). And I almost failed this challenge, as the goal was a bit too intense...many of these songs have higher quality versions already, but the whole project was thrown off its timeline by illness, a hard drive crash, a sudden necessary visit to Wisconsin, and a 12 band/musician house show at our house that took far more prep and planning than I realized. Strangely, ALL of these things that threw me off course involved becoming a better friend - even to myself. So I guess ironically I WANTED to go completely in my head with all these friends and spend a month in the studio, but what happened instead is that I kept being tested and choosing actual friend moments over working on this album...plus I just lost a bunch o files right before heading out of town, and we only got back a couple days ago, sooo this rough version was born.

Thanks to all my patrons who support this music, thanks to all the acquaintances and friends who've been there for me when I wasn't as good at returning the favor. I feel like I've lived a very charmed life overall.

All songs here were improvised in the moment, lyrics and music, with a friend - or at least written in the same day as these recordings (but rarely, it's mostly improv). Track 1 is a theme based on a 365 day song, and track 20 is a melody I've had bouncing around in my head for a musical I meant to make way back when (if you don't know, I have an MFA in Musical Theatre Writing even tho I don't write musicals now...but I did write 3 of em once upon a time, and music for a movie-musical too - "Were the World Mine")

This album is dedicated to all the perfectionists, all the dreamers, anyone who spends their life wishing they'd do more but can't get over the fear of releasing sloppy or imperfect things into the world. The world is cruel, and paralysis is self-protection, but also - comparatively - quite boring. I'm glad to be growing wings and giving fewer f*$ks.

"I love you all the way to heaven, to the planets, to all the houses, to everybody's head, and all the way back" - my 4 year old nephew to his older brother

(I wish this for you too, been trying to hold everyone I meet in my heart and mind, and see all friends as family these days, and strangers too...but we can't be all things to all people, so at least I hope you all have or find at least one friend who makes you feel this way, or reach out to someone else and become this for them...most people just don't know where to start <3)

credits

released May 31, 2018

(c) 2018 Jessica in The Rainbow / Jessica Fogle

Music and lyrics by Jessica Fogle & Friends

List of songs and their original moments of creation (if applicable) + links to many of these friends music pages, because they are brilliant and you should check them out.

1. Lullaby for Friends - solo, based on:

youtu.be/xfOhOJv2aLI

2. Playyyy - with Ryan Wyrick

fieldflower.bandcamp.com
youtu.be/hYNR-niiM2Y

3. Be My Friend / Who's At the Door - with Micah Middaugh of Breathe Owl Breathe

breatheowlbreathe.bandcamp.com youtu.be/9CE3MhVdUKE

4. Wolfbird aka Same Things - with Bryan Ralph

bryanralph.bandcamp.com/track/beneath-the-steps-2 youtu.be/YpwlJo_CXWw

5. Unicorn Song - with my bf Stephanie Bell + many friends, family and patrons (who gave me a list of suggested words and topics for my final improv song on day 365)

youtu.be/2QiOiBgjeCc

6. Light - with cloudlight (Mackenzie Carlson & Bryan Ralph)

cloudlightmusic.bandcamp.com
youtu.be/fjxuatBChX8

7. Surprised (by you) - with Fiona Dickinson

fionadickinson.bandcamp.com
youtu.be/yzVWBKFDVpg

8. Pumpkinpalooza - with Bryan Ralph

(one of his old collaborative projects I love, Long Live the Liar <3 w/ Rob Verosko - longlivetheliar.bandcamp.com/track/someone-still-loves-you ) youtu.be/fjxuatBChX8

9. Words - solo version (a song I wrote in 2016, unreleased, multiple collaborative versions to come*)

(*one of them was actually the one intended for this album originally, featuring a recording from band practice with Hunter Zhao, Maddie Jackson, and Charity Lytle, with sparkly layers over it, but the most recent edits were lost in the hard drive crash, so these lovely friends are on this album in spirit! well, Maddie is on it for real too, a few songs later...)

10. Grow - with Bryan Ralph (he's my partner, sooo... :)
(here's a cover we did together years ago, recorded live by Elisabeth Blair: bryanralph.bandcamp.com/track/boris-smile-cover-mother-hen-are-you-a-shelter - original song at borissmile.bandcamp.com/track/mother-hen-are-you-a-shelter )

youtu.be/n9vw2rYVbKE

11. Fly (It's Time) - with Maddie Jackson

maddiejackson.bandcamp.com
youtu.be/TWNhTJ4ZfnE

12. tiny (in bloom) - with Jes Kramer

jeskramer.bandcamp.com
youtu.be/5UulukduLzU

13. Wonder - with Tom Hymn

tomhymn.bandcamp.com
youtu.be/vfyum7ZNrwg

14. Life-Changing (Kindness, is the point) - with Nathan K
(*I wasn't bold enough at the time he came all the way from Nashville to play at our house, aka In the Clouds show #2, to ask him to make up a song with me...so instead, I asked him later, and we did this collab long-distance, with the song-of-the-day written right after he was here, in the same spot he played so maybe I could feel his vibe still, who knows :)

nathank.bandcamp.com
youtu.be/q6scVx8OeOc

15. For Evangelie - with Van Lente

vanlente.bandcamp.com
youtu.be/vMHcsGShXPc

16. Belong (i.e. Everything is a Song) - with Earthwork Farm & Friends in the air...

*this one is a placeholder for a collaboration with Seth Bernard, currently being discussed but schedules haven't aligned yet :) (this was written after my first time playing at Earthwork Harvest Gathering, and the ideas post-nerves are very much related to all the worlds and people I've felt "outside" of, misfitting everywhere, when sometimes - not always but occasionally - it just comes down to asking and showing up and facing fears...)

youtu.be/ldsQFk8GjNc
(+song written on the farm 1 day earlier - before performing, full of nerves and fear: youtu.be/XxiOOfFXxbg )

17. Like A Bear - with Travis Hull (of Chef Goldblüm, + formerly of many bands and projects) & Bryan Ralph

chefgoldblum.bandcamp.com

18. Hole - with Nicholas Stutsman (also of Chef Goldblüm, + many other bands, projects, solo work)

nicholasstutsman.bandcamp.com

19. Friend Ship (to the sky, in your mind) - solo, inspiration for album title (the lyric came before album title...as a very heavy somewhat sad thought)

youtu.be/2-V_onocg9I

BONUS TRACKS

20. Lullaby for Friends 2.0 - had an idea to include this, and also talked with my friend David about doing something if I needed it, in a pinch, after the harddrive crash...this is an old melody from an unfinished musical...he has an MFA in Directing and works in theatre still, maybe we'll collaborate on this someday (nothing to link tho...except maybe our collab of You Belong to Me? we went to our friend's wedding and making up improv songs isn't his thing but we always sing this one together, whenever I see him and there's a ukulele)

youtu.be/kILLgi_mRF0

21. Magic Show - with Pozzetronics (Eric Bennetts) & Carl Swifney, at the end (and Bryan Ralph filming, maybe we'll all collab on this one someday)

youtu.be/zWobSk0Kgjk (Pozze)
youtu.be/Qu0COuzCrRQ (Magic Show)

22. Proof - with Leah Kristene, live at Harper House (Muskegon, MI) - included this one even tho it's hard to hear and ripped from a FB live feed, because it was the first collab where I led the way (previous ones close to my heart, with KFG and DPS are linked below too...tho the creative content in those cases was theirs)

youtu.be/4Aq7Dv5Dn3k (proof, w leah)
youtu.be/sCTUvIcHlrA (w/ KFG)
youtu.be/9QfDo_57ppY (w/ therealeatwood, a tweet-cycle)
youtu.be/c9uvylYPrDg (w/ the realeatwood, tweetical...)

23. Making Up Songs (is fun to do!) - with the Bell kids - I included this one at the last minute too, but after a fun visit in Wisconsin with these beautiful kids, I realized your own nieces and nephews can be friends too...so can your grandparents, your parents, babies, anyone. Why segregate life? These kids mean the world to me, as do my other nephews and niece on the Fogle side, but Alice made a song with me when I was in Minnesota and it's not my creative property (she totally led the way on that one, link below)...but this one, I led the way and Brooklyn made sweet echo harmonies, on the fly, and the boys played drums and instruments and danced and were cute...it's better as a video but it's on the album because I plan to remake it with them all this summer, high-quality version with gang chorus vocals and harmonies, I hope.

youtu.be/LarELfa5T-c (Making Up Songs)
youtu.be/UuWcVIRT65Q (my niece Alice's original song)

Thanks to everyone who worked with me, and wrote with me, and played with me, and made me feel heard and loved this past year...and specifically this past month. I feel like a dandelion, growing fast and suddenly...turning into those blowing things, spreading seeds all over my yard and the yards of others. Whether or not you think that's a good thing is up to you (if you care about lawns and order?), but personally I think it's pretty neat. xo Jessica

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